George M. Johnson to Release Third Memoir Addressing Life and Identity

Previously, Johnson faced public scrutiny, especially concerning their first memoir, “All Boys Aren’t Blue,” which was banned in 29 school districts shortly after its release and became the most challenged book of 2024.

In this upcoming memoir, targeted at an adult audience, Johnson shares their experiences after being diagnosed with HIV at 25 and chronicles their journey through various careers, from finance to community healthcare and freelance journalism. At 41, Johnson recounts two decades filled with significant loss and personal growth, blending touching narratives with humor that resonates with readers.

Johnson aims to convey that there is always time to navigate through life’s complexities. “Life is defined as we see it, and I chose many different ways in which to live my life — some good, some bad — but they all kind of go hand in hand together,” they explained.

Each chapter begins with a letter to a past version of themselves, acknowledging the continuity of their identity despite new experiences or understandings. Johnson highlights the importance of these past selves, emphasizing, “Those older versions of myself don’t just go away just because I have new knowledge.”

The memoir's title derives from the Christian prayer “Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep,” reflecting Johnson’s upbringing in an African American church led by their grandmother. The choice of title may also serve as a counter to Christian nationalist groups that have opposed Johnson’s previous work.

Passionate about community service, Johnson shares stories of their efforts in AIDS advocacy and other forms of support. They believe that vulnerability in storytelling can help others facing similar challenges. “I am always going to lean towards being my most vulnerable, transparent self,” Johnson noted.

Though positioned as a memoir, “And If I Die Before I Wake” may appeal to those seeking guidance, as Johnson candidly addresses their life’s missteps. They express that holding back details could limit the book's impact, stating, “Anything I keep out of the book, that’s probably one less person that the book can help.”

For students and readers, Johnson’s story serves as a reminder of the non-linear nature of life and the potential for community support in overcoming hardship. Johnson is scheduled to visit the Ethical Society of St. Louis on the release day of November 10.